Saturday, May 8, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!!

I am still breathing and functioning. For the most part.

A little over a week or so ago, my brother in law died. He was 44. He would be 45 today. My sister lost the love of her life, and it gave me a pretty scary peek into the life of losing your spouse. What a wake up call. I may complain about my husband's lack of interest in my passions, the fact that we NEVER go out and do anything anymore, he has poor listening skills, he talks too much, he never listens to MY music, he moves the seat in my van and doesn't put it back, and the list goes ON AND ON. But, you know what? I'd be SO freakin lost without him. He is my soul mate, and he has helped me construct the last 15 years of my life, and it's a life that I'm very proud of. I couldn't have done it without him. So, although tomorrow is designed with me in mind, as a mother, you can bet your a$$ that I'll be showing him how much I appreciate him, as well. I spent some time watching him sleep last night. I watched his chest rise and fall, and wondered if I could survive finding him with his chest completely still, his skin cold, and no matter how hard I try to make him breathe, he won't do it. I don't know if I could go on.

On a happier note, today is Autumn's prom night! She had a bit of a scare with waking up to a sore throat and a cough yesterday, but she feels much better today. I am doing her hair and makeup, since we're on a limited budget. Wish me luck that I don't fail her!! Isn't she just gorgeous?

As I'm sure you've guessed, we're finally all moved in to our new house. We all really love, although I have to "bomb" it again for spiders. I let hubby do it before we moved in, and he only used half of the kit. We did see less spiders for a while, but lately, I've noticed that they're having little spider parties in my kitchen and dining area. Not cool. Yuck. Other than that, we're settling in and talking about new living room furniture, etc. It's fun to make plans...even if you can't see it through for a while.

CJ is doing fantastic. He had a day last week that he was stiff and a bit "broomstick like" for the first lesson of the day, but then he got much better. I suspect that we have arthritis issues at hand more than we have navicular issues. I did give him a little Bute that night, just in case, and he was fine the next day. Who knows....he may have just played too rough with Toi, too. Myah is riding again, too, which is good to see. She struggles with a fear of heights, so clambering up on our 16 hand horse is tough for her. Once she's up there, she does great, though!

Yes, I know his throatlatch is too tight. I need to punch holes. He survived, though.

I don't have much more to update you on. I want to wish you all a very happy and fun-filled Mother's Day weekend! I'll sign off with some photos of beautiful Dancer, just for fun. Don't look at the fat lady trainer on her back...seriously.

Baby Dancer:


  1. I'm so sorry about the sudden loss of your brother in law, Lopin. Please know we'll be saying a prayer for your entire family, and special ones for your sister.

    I'm totally with you-- I watch Dear Husband sleep, and listen to him breathe... and know that God Forbid if anything should happen to him I'd go to H*ll in a handbasket in a hurry.

    Here's praying that BOTH our guys are with us for a very very long long LONG time!!!

    CJ looks awesome!! ANd HAPPY PROM!!!!!

  2. I second what Mrs. Mom said; may we all be blessed with long and happy marriages. My condolences to your sister, you, and your family. Kit at Gizzards and Calf Fries blog just lost a cousin, it's so sad when someone dies unexpectedly. Prayers for you and your family.
    Your daughter looks great in that beautiful color, I hope her prom goes well, and a happy Mother's Day to you.